Monday, May 10, 2010

Letting go

How do you let go of your child?
What a complicated and tangled duty.
I wished for her
I dreamed of her
I carried her
nursed her
changed her and my whole world
Now, I am being asked to let her go.
To live with a lives work and then open your door
and say bye...huh uh..don't want too
you may say its right but I want her, little ,
smiling at me and not seeing my shortcomings
thinking I made the sun come up.
sitting in my rocker to nurse at 2 am SHARP.
Laughing crying SCREAMING..
clutching pushing..the mother daughter
dynamic is STILL the most intricate of all the
relationships...but is deep
self observing and amazing.
If I could tell you one thing..
I never willingly want to let my babies go..
but life calls for them from day 1.
Imposing itself on my time with them.. now she is
18 and full of anticipation...
OK WORLD.. I am letting go
and you better treat her right...
love her
honor her
listen to her

signed :heartbroken mother of a new woman.

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